The Springs

Tonight I am in Colorado Springs. I am here because I am watching Katie's kids while she is in Orlando with her new fiance Eddie. I am in a beautiful home, a beautiful city with tears streaming down my face why Aubry and Austin are watching "Cars". I should be happy, Im doing what I love to do more than anything which is travel, but I am so sad and upset for some reason. Maybe it is because I would like a home just like this one. Maybe it is because I know that Everything in my life is so different from most peoples lives. Sometime I feel like my life is so insignificant. So unimportant. I feel like I have done so much for everyone I love. I feel like I have devoted my life to a career that has gotten my nowhere. I should have done something different. I feel like the right choices I have made, the devotion I have put into my passion, I feel like it has let me down when I never let it down at all. Maybe I did and I just don't know it. Im going to have to spring back from this feeling if I am going to find a new job. I just don't have the drive.